Dont leave me out here.

Hi! For the first is, sorry tak update tiga-empat hari ni. Okay, menukang buku. Hihi :') Well, long yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! the exam is already done. Can you imagine the whole two weeks I cant have the sweetest dream? In fact, I have nightmare lastnight. Whick told me, Maths gonna ruined everything! Omg-.- Yet, it was true. I was feeling like to cried. Okay, stop it. Mata aku maleh doh nak nangis. Hahaha.

Even though, what past is past and they won't come back and change a thing. Whatever. I just want to plow through my holiday as miraculous as Mr. Bean's. Hehehe. Ohh, big shocked! I found my old pendrive bebeh. Hihi. I go through up those folders. And guess what. Alot of miracle came into me. Okay, aku tipu. No lah. It was just like, I got sooooo many memories with others. And I read all previous update. Omjay, my eyesss-.- SHIT. Stop it, and yesterday. I wrote this one:-

IMissMyLifeSaver

And suddenly, it turns like this after I read Yezz magazine:-

IMissMyLifeSaver 

Ohyaa, aku lupa. Aku mana ada LifeSaver. Eh, tak pernah ah! *kejam gila Syaza. Hahaha. Stupid me, i read all my previous post and I opened his blog. And apa aku dapat? Bodohh, langsi gila. Sakit hati je weh-.- Errr.

I'm on my way to meet my cousins, kbyee.

Puke

“I do all types of retarded shit.

I can’t change the way I think &&

I can’t change the way I am.

But if I offended you?

Then good cause I still don’t give a fuck.”

Benci.

Tak patut kau buat aku macam anak kecil, macam aku tak boleh faham semua.

Masalah dunia? Angkara siapa? Kau. Ya.

Kata tahu baik buruknya.

Kau terdesak?

Jangan.

Jangan begini pada diri. Sabar. Sediakan diri dengan doa, sentiasa reda dan menerima.

Ujian itu.. ujian. Hadapinya.

Kalau mati itu benda biasa, Kalau tiada dosanya untuk membunuh,

sudah lama diri ini runtuh, luluh..

reput ditelan tanah.

Mampus habis diratah.

Bila nafas berhenti, kita semua akan mengerti.

Jangan gusar, tanamkan rasa takut..

Sudah jauh kita berjalan, tiba masa tuhan dan hamba-Nya ditemukan.

Hasta lavista, Kbyee

Happy birthday!

This is Isyraf Azlan, one of my coolest friends. This best bro, this best bro. Hahaha, harini birthday sewel ni lah ken? Haha, Happy birthday weh! May god always bless you. Aku hargai kau sbg kawan, and thankss alot sebab bg aku hujah yg berbau nasihat pasal 'jantan' Hahaha. Thanks bro, this best bro :'D

Last word: Happy birthday SEWEL :')

I dont have, and I dont want any from this. Thanks.

1. Get kissed in the rain
2. Have that one hot kiss where your pressed against the wall
3. Have a guy that thinks you’re the world
4. Have a guy that holds on as long as possible when giving hugs
5. A boy that whispers he loves you in your ear
6. Have that moment where you just gaze into each others eyes
7. When you cry, he kisses your tears away.
8. When you’re not with your guy he’s all that you can think about
9. Wearing his jacket and every time you breath in, his scent surrounds you
10. A guy who will watch any movie with you, no matter how teary eyed you may get.
11. A guy who squeezes your hand
12. A boy that says he loves you and means it
13. A guy that will play her favorite song outside her window
14. A guy who is loyal
15. A guy that will sing to you no matter how bad he is at it.
16. A guy that will kiss you on the forehead.
17. A guy that will call you beautiful or adorable…not hot, fine, or sexy
18. A guy that will never judge you for how you look.
19. A boy that says cheezy stuff to you just to make u smile
20. A boy that is the same when he is with you and when with friends
21. A boy that tells you everything honestly
22. A boy that is good with your family and introduces you to his family
23. A guy that will always let you win
24. A guy who stands up for you no matter who it is against
25. A guy who calls you at night just to say ‘hi’ and see how your day has been
26. A boy who tells you that your smile makes his day and makes everything better
27. A boy who will sit on the phone with you when you’re sad, even if you’re quiet
28. A boy who you can hangout and have fun with
29. A boy that will just randomly call you for no reason at all, just because he missed you
30. A guy who will hold your hand through the roughest parts of life.
31. A guy who would love you forever no matter the circumstance.
32. A guy who wouldn’t mind you wanting to get all dressed up and do your make up for him. Even if he says he likes you better without make up.
33. A guy who you can be yourself with and he will never give a care and would still tell you that you are amazing to him.
34. A guy who runs his fingers through your hair, like he’s washing your worries/troubles away.

I'm sorry, I cant accept you. I have my own reason dude. I'm sooo sorry :( We were meant to be just a blast friends. Again, I'm so sorry. I dont want any 'clash' words in my life anymore. Hear me that? Okay thanks.

Buckle up me

Is this a call FREEDOM? Hell yeah-.- Okay so here I am. In my room, currently listening to That Should Be Me by Justin Bieber. Herrr, I cant get out my self from hearing this song for even 5minutes. Isnt that 'bodoh'? Errr, stop it lah Syaza. Aku menyampah laaa. Dengar je, haaa then it starts-.- Pikir tuu, terbayang kisah lama. Duh. Banggang! 


Satu, dua.
Pergi.
Tiga, empat.
Beredar lagi..

Aku dah kata. Jangan percaya dengan belas kasih dunia yang penuh muslihat. Satu hari dia baik, esok lusa dia membabikan kita. Ya, aku tau aku manusia bikin banyak masalah. Tapi itu aku punya hal, aku punya kata akhir. Mana datang benci, mana datang tikam belakang, depan, kanan, kiri.. Dari kesilapan sendiri juga sebab memberi lesen kepercayaan.

Bila berjaya, tunjuk hormat, kasi tabik sama dia. Tinggikan dada tanda bangga. Sukses, sukses. Satu mangsa jatuh. Bersedia untuk 'hentaman' seterusnya.

Bagi mata kau sendiri pencapaian kau itu satu kebangaan, satu.. kejayaan yang boleh melumpuhkan semangat.. boleh menjatuhkan maruah.

Tapi sedarkah kau? 'Pencapaian' itu lah salah satu dari 70 dosa besar.

Aku boleh buat apa? Senyum saja. Nak lawan tak boleh, saja nak jadi lebih matang. Kerja sudahpun dilaksanakan dengan sempurna. Nak babikan balik buat apa? Mengundang banyak masalah lagi. Bosan betul.

Apa-apa pun..

Terbaik untuk awak. Tahniah.

Bodoh. Sarkastik gila.

Attention!

I've moved to :

http://syaza-johari.blogspot.com/

More to Tumblr :

http://syazajohari.tumblr.com/

I'm not yours to keep

So here I am, after one week not to updating ANY post as the past. Yeah, this is currently my quick post before I go bed.  First for all. HAPPY TEACHERS DAY TO ALL MY TEACHERS :* This week currently my hectic week I guess. My mid-term exam will be this Wednesday. Ohmyy-.- What the holly?! So things need to be settle up like ''Foliosss'' is almost done! YIII.  And all preparations for exam, huhh insyallah I'm ready to warr! Harharhar. Nothing much happend today. Yeahh, totally boringggg-.- 

And again, this is horrible! I got fever. Ahh, coughing all the time. Sumpah menyampah ah! Nak exam mesti sakit. Haih-.- Whattheeee. Okay, I have screw up my mind. That I'll delete him from my mind, yaa. It's not that easy. But, I'll keep harder to delete it :) Enough of it, I can survive on my own without any peoples sent me 'iloveyoubaby' ahh shitty. And now, I just realize. Single pun ada bnyk masalah. Tak jadi problem untuk aku survive hidup. Sebab aku tahu, mama babah ada :') And also friends. So, I have grew up already! 

Macam Amirul, he said to me that ''rempit pun boleh hidup lah-.-'' And Imma said it loud? 

Single pun boleh hidup ah!

Hint Me!

Hey, so sorry for not updating my blog for almost 1 months. I got alot of things to do with. Plus, I got no mood to write about. So, I just stick on my Tumblr ;) Oh yaa, everybody. I kinda moved to Tumblr. Visit this to get my Tumblr

syazajohari.tumblr.com

Okay, now wassup with my life? Nothing to discover on. But, I got nothing else in my life now. Seriously, I dont know what I've done. But people ANTI me just like that. Urghh. So sorry la, if I done with my foolish mistakes. Jangan lah benci aku kay? Aku ni hina sangat ke sampai macam tu sekali korang nak pinggirkan aku? I'm not going to accuse somebody else in this problems. So, jangan nak tuduh aku je!

Mid year exam is around the corner. So, wake up everybody! Prays for me for colours result :)

Happy birthday wehhhh<3 lots of love SYAZA

ILOVEYOUSHAHIRAISMAIL<3

Lawlzzzz, saya memang kejam pasal blog :D I private it from public, before someone get hurts? Yaaa, baik lah aku private. Susah nak puaskan hati manusiaaa ni. Masing-masing dengan EGO yang melampuihhh, for sure I do have my EGO. Aku tahu aku manusia yang... Ah, tidak perlu daku jelas kan lagi, aku memang bnyk melukakan hati kawan baik aku. Tengok, betapa bebalnya aku! Bodoh kau *mcm fea moa ckp* Eh betul ke eja? Ah kesah pulak. Tak sampai hati aku nak private, tapiiiiii.. Err, aku memang jenis bodoh mcm ni. Semua gelak sekarang! Aku tahu tak ada kena mengena. Lantaklah, hmm. Setiap malam aku mesti tengok gmbr kwn2 aku dkt laptop. Aku tahu mama perasan, dh tengok lepastu nangis. Ah bebal-.- Aku nak mintak maaf gila dkt diorang, aku tahu ah aku bodoh en tak pikir lah apa semua. SORRY :( Tapi ada satu masalah, aku tak tahu mcm mana nak mintak maaf. Tengok. Bodoh lagi aku ni!

Hell yeahhh-.- And today is my beloved mama birthday :) Besides I got tuition-.- Trouble me somemore. Nk skip taknak? Takyah ahh. Kay out of here :)

Hahaha, yayaya-.-

All of sudden, while me was yawning in tuition class. And my eyes full of filter water. Amir shouted

Syaza selalu keseorangan. Kesian dia.

And me,

Hahaha. *laying down*

Lol me-.- I used to be like that lah Amir :) I dont mind kay. I'm tired of the stress that my family, relationship and schools give me like bonus for me. I try to fake a smile but no matter how hard I try this, its not going work at all. I cant stand with all the madness. I try to look past the pain but it takes all over my body. Espeacially my eyes :( It makes my heart pounced with pain, I look at all your pictures and smiled. I read all your old messages, and I cried. I'm tired of living day by day without you. I'm tired to make unreproductive face with you when we meet at school. Seriously :'( Kbyee.

Im so sorry for being so emotional and so possessive. I'm sorry if I do hurts you so many times. I'm sorry for each of the fight. Sorry for being so immatured towards you. But believe me, i love you so much. Na'aah, I cant forget you :( Should I say sorry for that?

Tiredddd-.-

Today I woke up at 7:05 and inteadly take my bath. I didnt go to school today anyway :D I bet, all my classmates must be wondering 'Eh, empat-empat tak datang?' Hahaha, aku tahu. Mesti class sunyi gila en? Tak ada orang nak melawan cakap cikgu harini :p So on, Syazana, Shahira, Syazwani and me went to pwtc. Oh, forgot. Kak Idahyu folows us to. Yaa, tireddd weh-.- Gambar gila banyak do. Tak sabar nak tunggu Shahira upload. Okay, done. Babah dah balik. 

See yaa.

How to get ride of your bf physco ex-gf

Man, I always find myself stuck between this mess.
From what I know, I've never been a boyfriend stealer before. Nor like this girl, harap mak bapak alim. Perangai anak mcam haram-.- Pegi matilah weh!

Let me start with number 1

Definitely KILL her.

No. I'm just joking. Don't want to be famous in a bad way! Imagine " A teenage girl kills her boyfriend's ex for being such a psycho " spreads all over the world. The news paper. Online. Blogger. Facebook. Twitter. Hahaha. So embarassing weh! Yes, at the same time, I'll be spending about 20-23 years of my life, no.. maybe MY WHOLE LIFE in the jail.. OR worse, death sentence for murdering.

Great.

2. Get her a new boyfriend.
I am totally agree with this. But, how? Ahh, let her be. She'll get bored and find herself a new boyfriend. If you're a guy, you know what to do! Go get her! Hahah.

3. Make her jealous.
I know this is pathetic. But, hey come on! What kind of ex doesn't get jealous when they see their ex boyfriend with someone new? Unless, they don't love him anymore, she won't. Don't worry, the psycho type will definitely will. Let me tell you something, if you choose to take this step, act professional. Just go with the flow.

4. Face her.
Tell her everything. A girl-talk could help. If she pick a fight with you or starting to get you on your nerves, start acting! and tell her this..

"Roses are red, Violets are blue, he's for me, not for you, and if by any chance, you take my place, I'll take my hand, and smash your face."

5. Get along with the situation.
Play along with her games. Be smart and professional. You got nothing to lose if you play it well. Remember not to affect your relationship. Plus, You got to make sure that everything you do is harmless or you'll pay for it.

Let's say she text you something like :

" Hey, I saw your boyfriend with another girl. "

" Really? Another girl? You must be mistaken, that girl IS me "

6. Carry on.
You know he loves you, and you love him too, just keep the fact going strong. She'll realize this one day, some day and finally back off.

7. Play the waiting game.
Just wait and see what she's capable of. Let's just hope that she'll give up and move on.

8. Do nothing.
Be careless. Who cares, you got your boyfriend with you now. Just go on with your relationship!

Kau fikir kau dah bagus sngt ah? 

They Are,

Have you ever felt so sad, so hurt, so depressed that you were at your lowest point? You were crying all night long and no one was there to even calm you down, the only "company" you had were your favourite pillow and blanket. Your head throbs, your heart breaks, you feel worthless as every minute goes by, checking your phone for a simple text but nope, nothing. After hours, his name pops up on your screen. Of course, for a moment there you hesitate. What girl wouldnt hesitate, what girl wouldnt think if she should go back to what made her into such a mess?


And this is what you boys call ego. 


I guess you only see what you want to. You dont see us being just a person with a massive amount of feelings. You dont see us being afraid of getting our hearts split again. Do you even know how scared we are? No, all you think is that one small move of us refusing is ego. Its called fear, idiot. Fear of ever being so weak,of ever being so depressed, fear of being so fucked up like the time you kept me waiting for you. 


When I was crying my eyes out, screaming to my pillow, wishing I would never have to go through another day of life again, where the fuck were you? You will never understand, we may laugh on the outside, try to understand your problems, adjust with your situation, but fucking take a look in our point of view once in a while. Life doesnt only revolve around you. Why should I stay and get myself hurt while you wont even be there to calm me down when I have the chance to walk away while I still can?

Endless Diamond Sky

Relationships come with a lot of tribulations. We fight, we yell, we get jealous, we cry, we feel pain, we hurt, we scream, we get frustrated, we get angry, we get upset, we break up and our emotions take us over. So why do we do it? Why would we want to feel not just sad, but truly hurt, sad to the point where your whole body hurts just because of one person, sad to the point where you feel empty when everything falls apart, sad to the point where your heart aches for the company of that being. I’ll tell you why I do it, its because besides all those moments when your stupidity gets in the way of what your truly feeling and you “fight”, the moments when you are truly loving someone are the most touching, astounding, magnificent moments you will ever experience. When two people are just loving each other its magical.


And to those of you who are to scared of getting hurt and too scared of the baggage that comes with relationships, let me tell you this, having someone you love and having them love you back is a feeling that you can not substitute. Having someone look at you with such a deep emotion is remarkable. Having someone touch with so much care brings a feeling of weightlessness throughout your whole body. Having someone whisper they love you feels like they screamed it. Having someone to hold your hand at all times just feels special. Having someone to be your best friend and be loyal to you and never lie to you feels so safe. So yeah, relationships suck, breaking up hurts, but having that someone that you feel so comfortable with, someone that you let inside your soul, someone that lets you inside theirs, someone to talk to at all hours during the day, someone to laugh with, someone to fall asleep with, having someone that is your other half for whatever amount of time you are together, is true beauty and I wouldn’t trade it for the world. 


Sincerly me, Syaza :)

Many Thanks :)

Its almost 1months my eyes burst out like..Ergh, I dont know what to excpect. Many thanks to Syazana, omaygoddd! She is good at calming someone down. Thanks weh :'( Terharu gila do. For the most, thnks to Atiqah for giving me support and sound me like 'Wth you're still thngking about him, try to forget Syaza' Im off without that weh. Sumpah, gentle tak tipu ni aku memang takboleh. Thanks all, Teeha Shahira Syafiqah and Syazwani. I owe you. Like look what, Im trying to avoid myself from type any humors status in Facebook. Aku kalau part memaki ni memang suka. What I need is P A T I E N T ! Bersabar separuh dari iman kan? Haa, stick on that Syaza :) Yeah, aku memang suka dia layan aku mcm sampah. Tak apaa, buat lah kay? Status semua tuju dkt aku :) I rather keep myself in cool mode. Buatlah sampai puas tau tau. I know that everyone were just like talking about me, jamin 100% nama aku rosak :) Terima kasih lah yee, hargai sesangat. Wait for my next post, going for my bath. Kbyee

Restttttttttt :D

-Weh, tak create post ke?

-Tak update ke weh?

*SORRY!*

Malas nak update, tunggulah sampai hujung bulan :D 
Hahahahahahaha

He promised me a million of times not to leave me even no matter what happen and so do i. both of us will try harder to keep our promise safe. as far as i know him, he will doanything for me.

Sincerly me, Syaza Syahirah :]

She got the beat

Mum woke me up early as usually, and I'm feeling so depressed. I woke up and instead get shower and performs. My mind and my heart, just like puzzle. I realize that everything is not fine -.- I need someone to get me lay down and relax. I read surah yassin and praised to Allah. And now, I feel more better. But.. I just cant go through my life anymore. Seriously, aku nak mati je boleh tak? Stress gila ah-.- ERRR

Okay now, starts my day of sound of the dog barking several times behind my grandma house. Many thanks to them, nak sambung tidur. Terus tak jadi. I feel drowsy and tired cried all the time. Well, Im so difficult to get normal back, which means.. Easily to smile, laughing my ass out and eating all the time. All what I need is to get better relationship with him and sleep. My body, my mind, my eyes becomes so heavy. So now I'm trying to left out what Im feel this by typing something un-hypnotize.

After this maybe I'll inactive updating my blogs and so on. Its April! I need focusing in my study, spend my time on tuition and revise all subject in form1 and form2. Gahh-.- Only weekends I'll online-ing Fb and Twitter, weekdays? Jangan harap ah mama nak kasi aku pegang modem. Kbyee.

You are next!

9 things that I hate about everyone.


1. People who point at their wrist asking for the time. I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for the TV remote because they refuse to walk to the TV and change the channel manually.

3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn Right! What good is cake if you can't eat it?

4. When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they?

5. When people say while watching a film, "did ya see that?" No Loser, I paid to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor!

6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?"Didn't give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?

7. When something is 'new and improved'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.

8. When people say "life is short". What the hell??? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!!! What can you do thats longer?

9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?" If the bus came, would I be standing here???